My last day of maternity leave is approaching fast. How quickly the time went. How far David and I have come as parents. Those first few weeks we really had no clue, but we figured things out and have found balance once again. And now I go back to work. I have to be honest, I am dreading my first day back. Monday lurks beside me like a close-talker everywhere I go. And this is coming from someone who loves her job. I am gonna miss Eliza like crazy. Thank God I have an office I can shut the door and cry if I need to. I know she will be fine. I know that. But that doesn't stop me from worrying she'll feel abandoned by her mama and other horrible thoughts. I am trying to take comfort in the fact that my work is meaningful. I like the work I do, I get to be creative, I work with interesting people and the work I do makes a difference in my community. That eases the pain a little. I am trying to remind myself that it will all come together in due time...and maybe missing her will only make our bond stronger or at the very least make me try even harder, to not take one second with her for granted.
P.S. In case you are wondering, the photo at the top is staged...although, yes, we do of course read Eliza lots of books, she isn't quite reading on her own just yet. This picture was completely the librarian in me saying, "let's get a picture of Eliza reading a book!" Eliza agreed to lay on her tummy and flash several adorable smiles, while mama snapped picture after picture...thanks for that hunny!